I can't sleep.
mood: 
sleepy
sleepy[ Current Clothes ] red and orange striped boxers and grey t-shirt
[ Current Mood ] tired but restless, so I can't sleep
[ Current Music ] the sound of Alex breathing
[ Current Taste ] Hmm, nothing really.
[ Current Hair ] Present
[ Current Annoyance ] Alex is in my bed only partially dressed and I am awake but he is not and refuses to wake and that is not on.
[ Current Smell ] Alex smells like shampoo
[ Current Favorite Artist ] Um, I don't think I've ever had a favorite artist
[ Current Desktop Picture ] a drawing I made of alex just now actually, haha
[ Current Favorite Group ] None
[ Current Book you're reading ] Not reading anything, just waiting for HBP
[ Current CD in CD Player] *goes to check* The Doors
[ Current DVD in player] Arrested Development Season 1 Disc 3. I know this without even having to check haha.
[ Current Refreshment ] glass of milk
[ Current Worry ] I. Can't. Sleep. I will never be able to sleep again. I'll just stay awake aaaallll night long, and then Alex will wake up and I'll pass out and when I wake up it'll be Alex's turn to sleep and we'll never see each other ever again.
LAST PERSON
[ You Touched ] Alex, just now when I was half-heartedly trying to wake him. He just slurred a little bit and rolled over.
[ You Talked to ] Alex, again just now. I asked him to wake up, he said something about fish.
[ You Hugged ] Alex, when he showed up on my front porch at 12:30 in the morning.
[ You Instant messaged ] Gabi
FAVORITE...
[ Food ] I really want a taco.
[ Drink ] Wouldn't mind a Sprite to go with it. Fuck, I'm hungry.
[ Color ] Yellow. I dunno.
[ Album ] No idea.
[ Shoes ] I need new shoes. I stepped on a nail (not like STEPPED on it, but the nail tore through the sole of my shoe, just narrowly missing my poor foot.
[ Candy ] Twizzlers
[ Animal ] dogs
[ TV Show ] Arrested Development
[ Movie ] Hmm. Alex and I were talking about watching Donnie Darko again tomorrow, soo..that.
[ Song ] I have White Rabbit going through my head
[ Fruit ] apple
[ Cartoon ] hmm, I dunno.
ARE YOU...
[ Understanding ] I usually ask others to be understanding, cos I fuck up a lot.
[ Open-minded ]Yeah
[ Arrogant ] Nah
[ Insecure ] Sometimes, not really, I dunno
[ Interesting ] Polite way of putting it, I guess. Haha.
[ Random ] Uh, yeah.
[ Hungry ] Yes, dammit. But I doubt Taco Bell is going to be open at 4 in the morning.
[ Friendly ] Yeah I think so. Unless I'm trying to intentionally be mean. Then you know, I'm mean.
[ Smart ] Yeah, but, in the words of 10 years worth of teachers, counselors, parents, and Alex: I don't apply myself.
[ Moody ] Not like some people I know
[ Childish ] hahahhahaa very
[ Hard working ] pfft
[ Organized ] PFFT
[ Healthy ] I'm not hacking up no lungs over here if that's what you mean
[ Shy ] No, very much not so.
[ Difficult ] Oh yes, very
[ Attractive ] I don't think so, but people keep telling me I am. Stupid girls at my school, they don't know what's going on. They all still think I'm straight for crying out loud.
[ Bored Easily ] I find ways to entertain myself. Except now. Well no, I found this, didn't I? So ha. Or something.
[ Messy ] Most of the time.
[ Thirsty ] Where's my Sprite, dammit! I have a milk, but it's gone warm.
[ Responsible ] Oh god no. That's why I need Alex to tell me when and why certain things are bad to do.
[ Obsessed ] with some things.
[ Angry ] at the moment, I'm just annoyed at my body for not sleeping. I'll cheer up soon.
[ Sad ] nah
[ Happy ] i will be
[ Hyper ] god no
[ Trusting ] in some
[ Talkative ] most of the time
[ Legal ] how old do you have to be to be legal? seriously. I can't remember.
[ My name is ] Ben
[ In the morning I am ] going to ravage alex and then whine because he wouldn't wake up before when I wanted to ravage him.
[ All I need is ] to go to sleep.
[ Love is ] nice
[ I'm afraid of ] losing everything
[ I dream about ] I dreamt I was on a boat the other night. Yeah, it kept hitting really big waves and almost tipping over and I kept calling out for Hagrid and Alex, but they were having tea by the wheel and weren't paying any attention to me so then I started crying-like really sobbing-and a really HUGE wave crashed against the side of the ship and I fell overboard. Once I got into the water there was all this gagging and choking until I woke up.
Wow, that dream really was frightening, though. I had forgotten about it. I like surveys like those. I guess I mean, I dunno. Yes I do. Fuck am I tired... Alex just rolled over again and told me to turn the light out and stop singing. Considering there are no lights on, nor am I singing, I'm very confused. He just started laughing. But it's like a kind of creepy, sleepy laugh that's..creepy. It's like a breathy "heh hehhehehhaheh" and now he's back asleep. At least he's not a kicker or anything..
FUCK OKAY. I am seriously going to sleep now. NOW I SAY, NOW. er..good night everyone.
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